Here I go again, late with the post.
I will cut to the chase--there will be no before and after pictures, because I am holding at 14 lbs lost and 16 to go. I am OK with this. By the way things are looking, when I weigh in this Wednesday, I will have to pull the camera out. Although I am the same weight, my shape is changing, and that makes me happy. I am regaining that "fit hour-glass" shape that I like to have. I want to be sporty, but I want my curves, too.
I am going to attend 3 bootcamp classes this week given by my old trainer, since my son is out of school, and I don't have to take him to class in the next town every morning. I was thinking about it, and with a little preparation at night, I can probably go to her again regularly. It will just require having clothes and lunches ready at night. Also, as things slow down at work during the holidays, I will be able to start going back to the gym at lunch to take the yoga and pilates classes that I love so much. Walking/jogging on the treadmill is getting kinda old.
I have to keep it real...I have been getting out quite a bit lately. I have become closer to a girlfriend at work, and in the past week and a half, I have been to a wedding, a happy hour, and out on the town at least 3 or 4 times. It's been fun, but I know that if i wasn't having social drinks, that I would have probably broken my 15 lb threshold by now. There is some good that has come out of all of the socializing, though...
I met a boy ( a MAN!) at the wedding reception, and a group of us are going to Vegas in January to celebrate his birthday. We are "friends" for now, but have both agreed to take things slowly and see where they lead us. I'm giving myself a pat on the back for letting go of all that was bad in my life, because it has affected my attitude, and I am feeling like the old Tracy again, AND I am attracting new friends, male and female.
I learning to be better to myself. Good things come back to you when you do.
I have a feeling that the balance of Week 17 will be good (1 day!).
Monday, November 21, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Week 15: Excuses & Results
Yes, I realize that I am finally getting around to posting this the day before I am to post my Week 16 Excuses and Results. I still thought that Week 15 was worthy of mentioning. I've been really busy--"good" busy.
In short, for my Week 15 weigh-in, I actually lost those three pounds back that I gained the week before. I guess, much thanks to no eating what felt like a 3-lb steak the night before weigh in! So, I am back down to 155 lbs, 14 lbs lost, 16 lbs from my goal, and 1 crazy lb away from my promise of posting icky before and after photos. I am not excited about posting the before and after pics, however, I am really happy about my weight-loss, although I have now dipped under my 1 lb per week average that I was wanting to stick to in order of beating or bettering my goal of 30 lbs lost by 7-26-2012.
My friends, I have really been enjoying my life the past couple of days. This blog should have probably been more about surviving a bad break-up versus losing 30 lbs. I have been learning to love myself again, and the weight-loss seems almost coincidental. In fact, my focus seems like it has been more about learning to love myself again. It's amazing what can happen to a person's spirit when you give someone all of you, and that person isn't capable of caring for you as they should. All they do is take from you, and make you feel as if you are not worthy of receiving anything in return.
Still, I don't think that the whole experience affected me for the worse when it comes to future relationships. All of this time alone has allowed me to place my focus where it hasn't been for the longest time--on me. It is causing me to be better to myself, to my kids, to be a better friend. Most of all, it has given me HOPE, a feeling that I haven't had for the longest time, because I was involved with someone else in a very hopeLESS situation. With hope comes optimism and happiness, and I believe that all leads to new and exciting open doors.
In short, for my Week 15 weigh-in, I actually lost those three pounds back that I gained the week before. I guess, much thanks to no eating what felt like a 3-lb steak the night before weigh in! So, I am back down to 155 lbs, 14 lbs lost, 16 lbs from my goal, and 1 crazy lb away from my promise of posting icky before and after photos. I am not excited about posting the before and after pics, however, I am really happy about my weight-loss, although I have now dipped under my 1 lb per week average that I was wanting to stick to in order of beating or bettering my goal of 30 lbs lost by 7-26-2012.
My friends, I have really been enjoying my life the past couple of days. This blog should have probably been more about surviving a bad break-up versus losing 30 lbs. I have been learning to love myself again, and the weight-loss seems almost coincidental. In fact, my focus seems like it has been more about learning to love myself again. It's amazing what can happen to a person's spirit when you give someone all of you, and that person isn't capable of caring for you as they should. All they do is take from you, and make you feel as if you are not worthy of receiving anything in return.
Still, I don't think that the whole experience affected me for the worse when it comes to future relationships. All of this time alone has allowed me to place my focus where it hasn't been for the longest time--on me. It is causing me to be better to myself, to my kids, to be a better friend. Most of all, it has given me HOPE, a feeling that I haven't had for the longest time, because I was involved with someone else in a very hopeLESS situation. With hope comes optimism and happiness, and I believe that all leads to new and exciting open doors.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Week 14: Excuses & Results
I have to apologize once again for being late with my posts. It was a crazy week for work and for my soccermomming endeavors. I've also been fancying myself a little bit of a social butterfly, which could totally explain for this week's results...
EEK! I am UP 3 LBS!! That leaves me down 11 lbs this week, at 158 lbs,19 lbs away from my goal of 139 lbs.
Let me keep it real...
I had two work-related happy hours this week, and a fabulously large steak dinner Tuesday night (the night before weigh-in). I am a Florida girl, but I have been in Texas long enough not to pass up a free, fabulous, succulent ribeye dinner when it is offered to me.
...as well as a margarita or two...
I feel that I have already achieved one of the goals that I set out to conquer at the beginning of this whole journey. I've never been one to have a super large circle of friends, but I think that the quality of the few close friends that I have is such that I don't need a large circle. Anyways, I have some new acquaintances as well as a few people who I have known for a while that I have gotten closer to, who live good, clean lifestyles, are supportive of what it is that I am trying to do here and with other parts of my life, and are people that I want to learn from and support. I feel really blessed. I have laughed and cried and shared intimate details of my life with these special few people, and have done so without the fear of being judged. Although I am up 3 lbs (my first increase during this entire 14 weeks), I feel so much happier and enriched, and I have all of my supportive friends, new and not-so-new, to thank for that.
This whole thing has given me back some confidence that somehow evaporated along the way. Now that my head is getting straight, I realize that the only person keeping me from these goals or any other goals that I have is me. Regretfully, I am learning this at 39 years of age, but better to learn it now than at 59 or 79, right?
Here's to looking forward to Week 15, and no steak dinners the night before weigh-in.
EEK! I am UP 3 LBS!! That leaves me down 11 lbs this week, at 158 lbs,19 lbs away from my goal of 139 lbs.
Let me keep it real...
I had two work-related happy hours this week, and a fabulously large steak dinner Tuesday night (the night before weigh-in). I am a Florida girl, but I have been in Texas long enough not to pass up a free, fabulous, succulent ribeye dinner when it is offered to me.
...as well as a margarita or two...
I feel that I have already achieved one of the goals that I set out to conquer at the beginning of this whole journey. I've never been one to have a super large circle of friends, but I think that the quality of the few close friends that I have is such that I don't need a large circle. Anyways, I have some new acquaintances as well as a few people who I have known for a while that I have gotten closer to, who live good, clean lifestyles, are supportive of what it is that I am trying to do here and with other parts of my life, and are people that I want to learn from and support. I feel really blessed. I have laughed and cried and shared intimate details of my life with these special few people, and have done so without the fear of being judged. Although I am up 3 lbs (my first increase during this entire 14 weeks), I feel so much happier and enriched, and I have all of my supportive friends, new and not-so-new, to thank for that.
This whole thing has given me back some confidence that somehow evaporated along the way. Now that my head is getting straight, I realize that the only person keeping me from these goals or any other goals that I have is me. Regretfully, I am learning this at 39 years of age, but better to learn it now than at 59 or 79, right?
Here's to looking forward to Week 15, and no steak dinners the night before weigh-in.
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