The Slacker Takes a Break

I am a slacker.

I can’t even blog on time, and this is actually something that I enjoy because it gives me peace.

Last week’s results, etc? My weight stayed flat, and I exercised a couple of times…in a nutshell.


I get so frustrated with myself sometimes. I wish I had more discipline. I get so preoccupied/busy/obsessive/crazed with/by my personal life, that it is hard for me to stay on task the way that I really want to. I remember going to a golf tournament once, and being about arms length away from Tiger Woods when he was walking between holes. The concentration and focus on this dude’s face was insane. It was almost as if none of the applauding fans were there, like he was by himself on a deep, contemplative walk. Man, I want that kind of single-minded focus on this fitness thing. Personal life ADD is really kicking my ass.

…maybe there’s a book on “Focusing for Dummies” on itunes that I can download. I need HELP!

It’s been really tough since the bike broke. I was trying to wait until I hit 20 lbs off to buy a new one, but I think that I need to bite the bullet and do it now before it gets too cold for me to ride outside. I suppose that gives me the opportunity to reward myself with something else when I hit 20, right?

I do need to give myself some credit--all this time that I have been slacking, at least the better eating habits have been staying with me.  I try not to put too much pressure on myself to get this weight lost, but dude, 3 months have already gone by, meaning that I have 9 months to lose all the weight I need to lose.  Before too long, the months and days are going to feel like they are just flying by...OH, and the holidays are coming!

I'll get there.  If I don't have faith in anything else, I know that at least I will make THIS goal.  I've got to.