Week 15: Excuses & Results

Yes, I realize that I am finally getting around to posting this the day before I am to post my Week 16 Excuses and Results.  I still thought that Week 15 was worthy of mentioning.  I've been really busy--"good" busy.

In short, for my Week 15 weigh-in, I actually lost those three pounds back that I gained the week before.  I guess, much thanks to no eating what felt like a 3-lb steak the night before weigh in!  So, I am back down to 155 lbs, 14 lbs lost, 16 lbs from my goal, and 1 crazy lb away from my promise of posting icky before and after photos.  I am not excited about posting the before and after pics, however, I am really happy about my weight-loss, although I have now dipped under my 1 lb per week average that I was wanting to stick to in order of beating or bettering my goal of 30 lbs lost by 7-26-2012.

My friends, I have really been enjoying my life the past couple of days.  This blog should have probably been more about surviving a bad break-up versus losing 30 lbs.  I have been learning to love myself again, and the weight-loss seems almost coincidental.  In fact, my focus seems like it has been more about learning to love myself again.  It's amazing what can happen to a person's spirit when you give someone all of you, and that person isn't capable of caring for you as they should.  All they do is take from you, and make you feel as if you are not worthy of receiving anything in return.

Still, I don't think that the whole experience affected me for the worse when it comes to future relationships.  All of this time alone has allowed me to place my focus where it hasn't been for the longest time--on me.  It is causing me to be better to myself, to my kids, to be a better friend.  Most of all, it has given me HOPE, a feeling that I haven't had for the longest time, because I was involved with someone else in a very hopeLESS situation.   With hope comes optimism and happiness, and I believe that all leads to new and exciting open doors.